zu.gki.
no you didn't offend me.

but you made me think.

and I was troubled by how difficult your questions were to answer.

"What is it that makes your life fulfilling and worth living? What are the things you really love?"

really i spent all of yesterday feeling really bad contemplating suicide and went to bed early hoping to get some answers from my dreams.

i wrote down a bunch of dreams on my blog.

from what i can see of my future children and family is a short 6 year chapter in my life and then again later in my forties a 3 year chapter, though as with everything else family and children can turn out quite differently -- though I love and cherish every moment.

what makes my life fulfilling? spiritual and knowledge development.

I recognize that if I was more balanced, enlightened and knowledgeable I could go to a more complicated reality.

spiritual ascension and host body features is what I live for.

one of my current "mini-missions" in life is to get onto a healthy diet geared for longevity and spiritual functioning of body with mind.

I find eating much or eating junk shuts off my spiritual abilities.

sometimes i give people aura readings and such by looking at photos.

I find genuinely new knowledge exhilarating. I see spirituality and psychic ability as mainly one way in which I can receive new knowledge.

I also enjoy programming as an idealistic world where anything is possible.

I want to do more, but I'm not sure what.
I don't want a commoners job and would prefer to have a business.
I would work as a psychic for the military with aliens but I'm not that good a psychic and they have the bad habit of wiping peoples memories (military and aliens alike).

What do I really love? complicated things, I'm not sure how else to describe it.

though i do enjoy socializing with you :) family and friends. social interaction has a certain level of complexity not found elsewhere in the homo sapien experience.

I'd like to say I like helping people, and I do in making complex thoughts and technologies more accessible.
One of my souls long term missions is to enhance panspermia and make more hostbodies available in more regions of the universe for souls to experience and have their own loves thoughts and passions. The visions of android societies in environments too hostile for liquid-water beings keeps calling to me -- a light my souls follows.

how about you? what do you find fulfilling? and what do you love? .gki. dai ki du xu kq bqi ka.l!-wgi.