zu.gki.
no you didn't offend me.

but you made me think.

and I was troubled by how difficult your questions were to answer.

"What is it that makes your life fulfilling and worth living? What are the things you really love?"

really i spent all of yesterday feeling really bad contemplating suicide and went to bed early hoping to get some answers from my dreams.

i wrote down a bunch of dreams on my blog.

from what i can see of my future children and family is a short 6 year chapter in my life and then again later in my forties a 3 year chapter, though as with everything else family and children can turn out quite differently -- though I love and cherish every moment.

what makes my life fulfilling? spiritual and knowledge development.

I recognize that if I was more balanced, enlightened and knowledgeable I could go to a more complicated reality.

spiritual ascension and host body features is what I live for.

one of my current "mini-missions" in life is to get onto a healthy diet geared for longevity and spiritual functioning of body with mind.

I find eating much or eating junk shuts off my spiritual abilities.

sometimes i give people aura readings and such by looking at photos.

I find genuinely new knowledge exhilarating. I see spirituality and psychic ability as mainly one way in which I can receive new knowledge.

I also enjoy programming as an idealistic world where anything is possible.

I want to do more, but I'm not sure what.
I don't want a commoners job and would prefer to have a business.
I would work as a psychic for the military with aliens but I'm not that good a psychic and they have the bad habit of wiping peoples memories (military and aliens alike).

What do I really love? complicated things, I'm not sure how else to describe it.

though i do enjoy socializing with you :) family and friends. social interaction has a certain level of complexity not found elsewhere in the homo sapien experience.

I'd like to say I like helping people, and I do in making complex thoughts and technologies more accessible.
One of my souls long term missions is to enhance panspermia and make more hostbodies available in more regions of the universe for souls to experience and have their own loves thoughts and passions. The visions of android societies in environments too hostile for liquid-water beings keeps calling to me -- a light my souls follows.

how about you? what do you find fulfilling? and what do you love? .gki. dai ki du xu kq bqi ka.l!-wgi.

zu.gki. am reading "Blue Star - fulfilling prophecy" by Miriam Delicado
.i i'm pretty sure I quantum bound to the main set of abductors
.i haven't really exchanged much info
.i just the usual "oh we'll come and get you, oh no you're in the middle of a city, shit, get out of the city or we can't get you" line that well is just common knowledge
.i at some point the guy alien was irritated with the telepathic connection and i started getting a headache and fell asleep in the middle of a "sun salutation" yoga routine
.i then i went to go to sleep in my bed
.i eventually i slept it off
.i even now i have a pointless connection with them
.i can't really transfer much data since the quantum binding is so vague
.i oh well .u I hope to get a hut out in the country and get abducted sometime .gki. dai ki du xu kq bqi ka.l!-wgi.

zu.gki. had a dream
.i was in front yard playing with some neighbourhood cats
.i then started watching some videos
.i my parents asked me what I was in computer science for
.i they were saying how language are usually national and computer are global
.i so I said my goals were global as Rpoku was to help bring world unity through a one langauge .gki. dai ki du xu kq bqi ka.l!-wgi.

zu.gki. had a dream we went up to find a Nordic moon base
.i we entered in our space suits
.i we thought it was unoccupied
.i I went in there was a black man with me
.i then a Nordic in the base took a sword and killed the black man
.u somehow I didn't feel threatened by the Nordic man at all
.i then the Nordic went on to show me his collection of weapons on a nearby table
.i in an earlier variation of the same dream an earth man practically gets molested by a Nordic fem .gki. dai ki du xu kq bqi ka.l!-wgi.

zu.gki.had a dream that I moved my birthday party to merge with someone elses .gki. dai ki ma xu kq bqi ka.l!-wgi.

zu.gki. had a dream
.i was in a university i guess
.i i was spinning around in the hallway and some lady decided to spin along with me
.i i was returing from the slow dancing session
.i some gary whiteboy with afro room neighbour got aids and a black boy with an afro was telling everyone
.i the next day "gary white boy has aids" was on the front cover of the local newspaper
.i the black boy was going around saying gary would "god it out"
.i i noticed the gary boy was actually enjoying himself quite well
.i he even playingly threw the inside of a fudge jelly onto the window and it landed on his forehead afterwhich he giggled
.u completely resolved to his imminent death
.i a short blonde haire professor (me) decided to grow a polymer net the size of a baseball field
.i then i zoomed to being at parents place
.i i walked up and noticed there was a big polymer net in the backyard
.i there was even a fireplace being had in the middle of the pool
.i i walked up the stairs and noticed my dad was missing a head
.i so i asked where his head was and it re-appeared
.i then my left leg disappeared below the knee till my foot
.i i noticed i could still use my foot but not my leg
.i i decided to go downstairs
.i my mom followed me which spooked me a little
.i but i decided to levitate my way to my room
.i once i got back into my room i woke up .gki. dai ki du xu kq bqi ka.l!-wgi.