zu.gki.
i am pretty peaceful.

the violence is kind of just aggression that over flower from my past lives.

actually to be honest I was hoping that I could be a world leader, and since that was supposedly satan or whatever since the freemasons are luciferian, I was acting the part.


*shrugs* really it was more a journey of self discovery after all

i removed my thought blogs since they really were rancid with inappropriate subject matter, so hopefully i'll be able to stay cleaner this time around.

Canada has taught me that peace and negotiations is the way to go.

I heard that the word is more powerful than the gun. so I was capitalizing on using language as a weapon.

in truth I have many rationalizations for why I did it, including chronic pain, perhaps in part it had to do with paranoid schizophrenia, though at no point was a feeling anything remotely like fear, more so pain and reaction to pain.

I heard knowledge was power and attained lots of knowledge, though I can hardly say it has given me any power -- other than the power to convince a psychiatrist that i'm a schizophrenic.

oh well programming is my calling,
but if a calamity occurs in 2012 and I don't survive,
well we'll see what happens. .gki. dai ki bq xu kq bqi ka.l!-wgi.